R. I. P. HEAVEN LEE HAYES

Well, today marks the due date of Brian and I's daughter, Miss Heaven Lee Hayes! I officially would have/or being very close to having my rainbow baby! :( I do know that I am thankful for the 10 weeks I did share with her and knowing that Brian and I could create something "TO BEAUTIFUL FOR EARTH"!

~*In memory of Heaven, we have:*~

Named a star after her in the Virgo constellation (the month I miscarried her)

Had Memorial Bracelets made (month stones of AUGUST"conception", SEPTEMBER "m/c", and MAY"due date")

Of Course named her Heaven Lee (meaning she's Heavenly)

We still plan on making a collage all about her to hang on the wall!



Not only does today mark our daughters due date it also was the day that AF decided to visit me!!! REALLY??!!! Anyways here are a few poems/quotes that remind me of Heaven!

What Makes A Mother
I thought of you and closed my eyes
And prayed to God today,
I asked, "What makes a Mother?"
And I know I heard him say:
A Mother has a baby,
This we know is true
But, God, can you be a mother
When your baby's not with you?
Yes, you can, he replied
With confidence in his voice,
I give many women babies,
When they leave it is not their choice.
Some I send for a lifetime,
And others for the day,
And some I send to feel your womb,
But there's no need to stay.
I just don't understand this God,
I want my baby here.
He took a breath,
and cleared his throat,
And then I saw a tear.
I wish I could show you,
What your child is doing Here..
If you could see your child smile
With other children and say,
"We go to earth to learn our lessons
of love and life and fear,
but My mommy loved me so much I got to come straight here!"
I feel so lucky to have a Mom who had so much love for me,
I learned my lessons very quickly,
My Mommy set me free.
I miss my Mommy oh so much
But I visit her each day.
When she goes to sleep,
On her pillow is where I lay.
I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek,
And whisper in her ear,
"Mommy, Please don't be sad today,
I'm your baby and I am here"
So you see my dear sweet one,
Your children are okay.
Your babies are here in My home,
And this is where they'll stay.
They'll wait for you with Me,
Until your lessons there are through,
And on the day that you come home,
they'll be at the gates waiting for you
So now you see What makes a Mother,
It's the feeling in your heart,
It's the love you had so much of
Right from the very start.


Author Unknown

"An Angel in the book of life wrote down my baby's birth. And whispered as she closed the book "too beautiful for earth."

"Daddy please don't look so sad,momma please don't cry.
Cause I'm in the arms of Jesus, and he sings me lullabies.
please try not to question God, don't think he is unkind.
Don't think he sent me to you and then changed his mind.
You see I'm a special child, I am needed up above.
I'm the special gift you gave Him, a product of your love.
I'll always be there with you, so watch the sky at night.
Look for the brightest star and know that's my halo's brilliant light.
You'll see me in the morning frost that mists your window pane.
That's me in the summer showers, I'll be dancing in the rain.
When you feel a gentle breeze from a gentle wind that blows.
Know that it's me planting a kiss upon your nose.
When you see a child playing and your heart feels a tug,
Don't be sad mommy, that's just me giving your heart a hug.
So daddy don't looks so sad and momma please don't cry.
I'm in the arms of Jesus and he sings me lullabies!"

"If tears could build a stairway, and memories a lane, I'd walk right up to heaven and bring you home again."