Journey of Prayer

I have to admit, I've always prayed, but I never knew what I was supposed to pray for and how to do it. Thankfully, I have been blessed with the opportunity to be a part of an amazing group of women through the launch program of Sharon Jaynes new book, "Praying For Your Husband From Head to Toe"!

This book has already began to transform my life in a variety of ways.... From my understanding of the importance of praying for your husband (or future hubby, in my case), to actually reading "The Word", to understanding my job as a woman, a prayer warrior... I'm so grateful for this opportunity as it has been a true blessing in my life!

It went on sale yesterday so make sure you check it out! Until Next Time....

Received!!!

I received my book today!!! I'm so excited to start this new journey of praying for my future hubby from head to toe!!!

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Check out this life changing book...

I'm excited to receive my book and couldn't be more excited about starting this new journey...

His Back: His Protection

"Praying For Your Husband From Head to Toe" is the newest book by author, Sharon Jaynes! This book is currently available via PREORDER but will be available for purchase December 17th or before!

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A New Journey

I have been selected to participate with other wives, for the book launch team for Sharon Jaynes new book, "Praying For Your Husband From Head to Toe".

Obviously, I am not married, but I am so excited to be a part of this special group of ladies....

Dearest Future Hubby, I have started a new journey, a journey that will help us throughout our lives! Whether I am already with you (which of course I pray that I am) or not, I have begun the process of a successful marriage. I have prayed for my significant others' over the years, I would pray that they could beat addiction, get the job they wanted, the promotion that was so desperately desired, etc. but I do not believe that I have ever prayed for someone from HEAD TO TOE... I'm excited for this journey to begin! To learn new things and cry many tears! I'm sure that this journey will be difficult and that I will stumble at times, but know that I will always TRY, try for US, try for our relationship, our marriage, and the vary thing that our relationship is established on, GOD! I love you! Love, Your Future Wife Until Next Time...

Puppies and School Keep Me Busy

Bruno and his sister, Mamas have been keeping their MOMMY extremely busy... I have a few new pictures of them hanging out with me, helping take my mind off of the fact that my <3 is not with us!

School is going decent, I am still fighting back on the grade that was a 40% because of my sickness and my inability to participate as expected. December 1st is my LAST day! THANKFULLY! UNTIL NEXT TIME....

Meds, Puppy, Surgery

I've started new meds for my bipolar and I'm super excited to see if they help! So far I just get sleepy, but with Shane gone I struggle to sleep.  Once I get there though, I'm good! That's a God send!

Shane bought us a puppy 6 days before he left. Meet Bruno Cash Wilhelm, born July 5th 2013!  He's been great with very limited accidents (2) and neither were his fault! GO HIM!  He's all about his Mommy and always wants to be where I am!  He's the perfect cuddler and loves to snuggle!  Duke Mo absolutely adores him!

2 weeks ago, I had to have my gallbladder removed!  After 10 months of sickness, I am so ready for it to be GONE!!! 5 days hospitalized, 1 surgery, and 2 weeks of being uncomfortable... I have to say it is worth the results that I am too expect!

Complete Transformation

As some of you may already know my boyfriend is incarcerated for the next 30 days so I want to devote myself and my time to something more productive.

But, first a little update:

School is going really well, I am almost done with my associate's degree, which is in Business, but I have recently decided to obtain my bachelor's degree so, I have at this point, 2 years 5 months until I graduate! WOO HOOO! :)

Heaven's Angels Arise, which is my Facebook page has been up and running for just over a year now.  It has really started to flourish!  I create "Affirmations of Life" and "Promotions to Heaven" for those of us who have lost our babies too soon!  I love making them and take pride in each and every one of them! We just hosted our very first giveaway, in which we gave a "LIKE" a free personalized hand-stamped necklace in memory of her precious daughter!

My goal is to write more blogs in the next 30 days from my experiences with the loss of my first daughter, then the twins (son & daughter), fight with Bipolar, and the struggle that comes with it.  My plan is to encourage, help, or support my readers! 

Until Next Time...

I just completed a set of classes this past Sunday. I had begun these classes and struggled since January because I had gotten so behind from being sick for a month so I am thankful to get through those classes. For Psychology, I had an "F" until week 6 when I finally pushed over the hump. On my final exam I got a 96.67% which helped me to earn a "C-" for this class. In Critical and Creative Thinking, I haven't received my final grades yet! A huge thank you to Shane Michael for encouraging me and supporting me when I felt like I wasn't going to do decent and wanted to give up! You are appreciated more than you know.... On another note, I got the MOST BEAUTIFUL blocks in the mail... I got 3 of them, one for Heaven, one for Alijah, and one for Aaliyah! They are awesome and my new prized possession... I will share them with you later in the year! Because right now I am in the process of completing memory boxes for each of them... UNTIL NEXT TIME...

The Tale of Reece Amur

Well, my dad's 12 year old Rott./Shep.,Bear (the very first dog I ever spent my personal money on. LOL) and his 1 year old Boxer, Bristol decided to bless us with 9 beautiful puppies on September 14, 2012! <3

Bear

Bristol

9 Precious Puppies

Long story short we ended up keeping one! :) 

Reece Amur Hensinger

He's definitely a handful at times, but he is a great addition to our family.  He is doing decent with potty training and other than that he knows sit, is learning to lay down, shake, and "Tell Me"! 

He loves his mommy, daddy, Uncle Caesar, and Uncle Duke Mo! 

Love THEM! <3

Duke Mo Day!

Duke Mo Day was 2/1!  For those of you who don't know, he turned 7 years old!  It seems like just yesterday I got him.  Over the past year we haven't gotten to spend much time together since I was moving so much and couldn't have him with me, but since I have been back in Bellevue (since July) it has been a little bit better... Duke Mo got spoiled rotten for his birthday! Here's his 7th birthday picture... ROCKIN' HIS DADDY'S STUFF! <3

January

So, the month of January has been crazy, I welcome the NEW YEAR with a smile on my face.  Starting with Christmas there was an issue and it ended up being kind of crazy.  But here are a few pictures of me and Shane on Christmas 2012.

After Christmas came Alijah and Aaliyah's 1st Angelversary, which was extremely hard for me!  But, many people supported the peas and attended their angelversary on Facebook! Thanks to those who did.  Others chose to show their support in other ways...

Isn't that just BEAUTIFUL!

I also started a page on facebook called "Heaven's Angels Arise"!  You can click on the title and it will lead you to the page, but first let me explain what I do.  I make Affirmations of Life and Promotions To Heaven for those who have passed on.  Make sure you like the page!

Moving on!

The month of January has been all but easy!  I spend 21 days being very very sick!  I had an infection enter my bloodstream causing me to not be able to hold anything down including water.  As a result of this I have lost 15 lbs, among many other issues!  May grades in school are not the greatest because of my lack of participation, which I fully take responsibility for, but at the same time... I know that I was trying the best that I could during that time!  Shane's court date is coming up on the 11th of next month and I'm seriously scared of what the outcome will be.  Although, I know that together we can weather any storm.  

May plans for this year is to work on my language, as far as swearing as well as being more POSITIVE!  Working on my aggression is always the key! 

I hope that everyone had a good holiday and I wish you many blessings from my family to yours! 

Until Next Time... 

Alijah & Aaliyah's 1st Angelversary

Alijah Shayne & Aaliyah Kristine,

It's been a year since the day that I lost you and I have had a clouded view ever since.  Not a day goes by that I do not think of your precious faces!  Mommy and Daddy miss you more than words express, but I am happy that you get to spend all of this time with your BIG sister until we arrive.  

I have so many unanswered questions, why? how? Things just do not make sense, but I know that in the arms of Jesus you both are safe and loved beyond belief.  I wish you both, although with your sister, were here to spend Christmas with us.  That I could be watching you grow into beautiful/handsome toddlers!

I've done a few things in the memory of you both. 
http://www.facebook.com/HeavensAngelsArise 
I design "affirmation of life" and "promotion to heaven" certificates for other angel families.  I am proud to say that I do all of this in your memory.

I also have a "Held Your Whole Life" charm necklace, among many other things!

Alijah and Aaliyah, I love you more than words could ever express! 

Love, 
Mommy <3

Grade Report

I got my final grade from last 9 weeks... In University Composition and Communication I, I finished the class with a 92%, which is a A-. I am super happy with how I did. On my final exam, I got 24pts out of the 25 pts that were possible! I did my final exam on Traditional Education verses Online Education. In Principles of Healthy and Wellness, I finished the class with a 94.6%, which is an A. And on my final exam I received a 100%. My final exam is the presentation that I shared with you a few weeks back on Endometriosis. I just started new classes after a week off. My new classes are University Composition and Communication II and Media and American Culture. I'll update you on that as time goes on! Until Next Time...

Endometriosis Final

I had to complete a Powerpoint presentation for my finals! I thought that I would share it since I chose to do it about Endometriosis.

Endometriosis is the abnormal growth of cells (endometrial cells are cells that shed each month with your menstrual cycle) similar to those that form the inside of the uterus, but in a location outside of the uterus. These cells are also non-cancerous.

Although, the specific cause of Endometriosis is unknown there are a few things that can lead to Endometriosis being a problem. Retrograde menstruation is the backwards flow of blood up into the Fallopian tubes sticking to whatever it lands on and starts to grow. Immune system malfunction is another theory of causing Endometriosis. Some women's immune systems allow endometriosis to develop by not controlling or stopping the growth of tissue outside of the uterus. Researchers have found that families can carry bad genes that allow abnormal cells to survive and grow in the pelvic area. Families having genes that allow abnormal cell growth and survival is also considered a risk factor. Along with menstrual cycle factors, allergies, obesity, and exposure to toxins. Women who start their menstrual cycle at an early age are more likely to suffer from Endometriosis, along with heavy, painful periods, short menstrual cycles and long periods. Endometriosis is also linked to allergies (food, eczema and hay fever), obesity, and exposure to toxins. Environmental pollution (like dioxins) are suspected of helping the development of endometriosis.

The only way to be diagnosed with endometriosis is by having a surgical procedure done called a laparoscopy, which is a small incision or a laparotomy, which is a lard incision. Medical treatment options are available for women in their reproductive years. These medications include GnRH analogs, oral contraceptive pills, and progestins. Surgical treatment options are classified as either conservative or definitive. Conservative is when the uterus and ovarian tissue is preserved. Meanwhile, a definitive classification involves a hysterectomy, with or without the removal of the ovaries as well. Having a laparoscopy done, endometrial implants can be removed by a laser, but if the disease has progressed to much, a laparotomy may be required. Since a specific cause of endometriosis can not be found and it is poorly understood, at this time endometriosis can not be prevents. Although, long-term use of birth control can help prevent the disease from progressing.

There currently are two controllable risk factors that contribute to the growth of endometriosis. Becoming in better shape by working out or doing aerobic exercises 5 days a week can help slow down the process of endometriosis. Our environment and the air that we breathe exposes use to many toxins that are unhealthy for use. The only way to control this problem is to change the area in which we live. Some people may be able to do this, while others may not. Uncontrollable risk factors also influence endometriosis. Allergies and menstrual factors play a large roll in women having endometriosis. In most women the flow of menstrual blood flows backwards to some extent.

The link between the immune system and endometriosis is actually quite simple. The job of the immune system is to cleanse out retrograde menstruation so that cells do not grow in places they are not supposed to. If the immune system does not remove menstrual fluid out of the pelvic cavity properly or the chemicals that are made by endometriosis, the fluid and/or chemicals may irritate or promote growth into other areas of the body. Studies have found that women who have endometriosis are more likely to have immune system disorders, where the body attacks its own tissues. Researchers have found that further study of the immune system may give clues of causes and treatment for this disease.

The Endometriosis Association (EA) is a non profit self-help organization that offers help and support to those affected by endometriosis. They educate the public and medical community about the disease, and fund and promote research related to endometriosis. The Endometriosis Research Center (ERC) is open and free to all those concerned with Endometriosis, including, medical staff, researchers, women of all ages with endometriosis, or anyone who is interested in the disease. It is their goal to make a positive difference in the lives of millions suffering from this disease.

There is no cure for endometriosis. There are many ways that you can help ease pain such as hormone therapy, taking out tissue with laparoscopic surgery, having a hysterectomy or oophorectomy. There are pros and cons to each one of these methods used to relieve pain.

I learned a lot during the research of this presentation. Check out my references for yourself... it might surprise you what you don't know about this disease!

Heaven Lee's 2nd Angelversary

Yesterday was Heaven's 2 year Angelversary! It's crazy to think that I would have a 17 month old right now! Now, I won't say that I did as good as last year, emotionally. It was a little rough for me! Lord, how I wish I could hold them in my arms... Dearest Heaven Lee, Wow, Baby Girl, I can't believe it has been 2 years since we said "good-bye"! I want you to know that I think about you all of the time and wonder all sorts of things. My mind is kind of a mystery when it comes to you, your little brother, and little sister! You hold a piece of my heart, Heaven Lee, a piece that no one will ever have! It's yours to keep. It gives me hope knowing that I have you 3 looking over me everyday! How lucky am I to have such BEAUTIFUL guardian angels?! Rest easy knowing that your mommy loves you sooooooo much and wishes you were here to cuddle with! Love Always, Mommy Until Next Time...

The Next Week

The next week or so is going to be very busy... In school, I am finishing up my second set of classes! So, from now until October 14th I have 2 finals to do! For University Composition and Communications I, I have to write a 1050 word compare and contrast essay about "Traditional Education vs. Online Education". Currently I have a 95% in that class so things have went decent so far. In Principles of Health and Wellness, I have to create a 8-10 slide powerpoint presentation on a specific chronic illness. I have chosen mine to be about, ENDOMETRIOSIS!!! :) Current I have a 97.86%! The next few weeks are going to be exciting to say the least.... Shane has to turn himself in October 4th to do his 30 days county time. :/ I'm not to excited about this one, but I would rather him get it over with so that he can be home for the holidays this year. SO, the next week and 4 days will be consumed of me spending as much time as possible with my baby! Other than that, things are alright! I mean we are definitely making the best out of our situation. But honestly, did you expect anything different than that? Heaven's Angelversary is coming up.... a week from today Until Next Time...

September 11th

September 11th isn't just any other day for me or my family. Nor will it EVER be! On 9/11/1963 my grandmother delivered a baby, who would one day become my father. Yesterday he turned 49 years young! Happy Birthday, Dad! On 9/11/2001 a tragedy impacted not just select families within the U.S. but every person who felt compassion for our country and it's loses. Never Forget! On 9/11/2009 my brother and his friend were training for a triathlon when they we struck from behind and left on the side of the road. After a half hour they were found and life-flighted. Thankful they are still here with us! On 9/11/2011 again something life changing happened... I met and fell in love with my soul mate. Our relationship has experienced laughter, tears, and compassion on another level. I am so thankful to have been blessed with a man who can not only share my life, but who can teach me as well as learn right along beside me. Happy Anniversary, Shane Michael! September 11th has brought both joy and sadness to my life, but one thing is for certain, everyone of these dates listed above has been life-changing experiences. Thank you, Lord, for bringing me through the storms to realize just how blessed I am. Until Next Time...

Craziest Week of My Life

Well the person that Shane and I were staying with decided to kick us out. We only had 3 days to do it, with no money and no place to things were quite difficult. So, now we are living in a tent... AWESOME! Shane goes to jail October 4th! I am not looking forward to this one... 30 days is to long :/ but I will be glad for it to be done and over with. School is going decent, tomorrow starts my 5th week of classes! Both classes grades are in the 90% range and I'm super excited with how well I am doing... Emotionally I have been overwhelmed. Thankfully I get to see my therapist in a week! I need this appointment. Until Next Time...

Here We Go, Here We Go Again!!!

Most of the time, people aren't who they say they are... and you find out in some fd up way that you would never expect. Having someones back for an extended amount of time as doesn't change the fact of whether or not they will do the same for you... Honestly, that just exploits that you are vulnerable. Shane and I are once again, moving. Here we go again! Only move number 14 in our first year. School is going good... after 2 weeks I have a 96% in Health and Wellness and a 100% in writing composition... Staying after our dream of helping families who go through similar issues as ourselves is my drive. Shane has to turn himself in October 4th. So we only have just over a month together before he is gone for 30 days. Its hard to think about but in the end, I'll have my baby back and that's all that matters to me. Heaven, Alijah, and Aaliyah... You're on mommy;s mind... Until Next Time...